sing me a song....

* IM NOT IN THE MOOD TO WRITE SOMETHING HERE, BUT SINCE I MADE A PROMISE TO MYSELF THAT I WILL FINISH WHAT IVE STARTED, AND ALSO FOR MY FRIEND’S SATISFACTION, WHICH HOPEFULLY  HE’S ALSO ENJOYING READING MY ENTRIES, I WILL FINISH THIS ONE. 

OCTOBER 24, 2009

Hindi ko alam where and how to start this one. Ok, normal Saturday night, I was with Jake again. We went near his working place to have dinner, but the particular place was already closed because it was already 8pm. We walked and had dinner along the way, siya lang ang kumain, hehe. I was really not in mood to eat, hindi ko alam kung bakit. Then we walk and walk and walk till we reached Metrowalk, nakarating kami ng buhay! Haha! Honestly, I was scared while we were walking, hehehe! Hindi biro mga dinaanan namin, madilim and patawid tawid pa. But it was fun though, inaaliw nya ko sa kadaldalan nya. Haha!

Finally, nakarating na nga kami ng Metrowalk, the place is nice, para syang isang gimikan din sa Laguna. Mas ok sana kung may live band pagdating namin dun, talagang ako pa sana magyayaya sa kanya to choose a bar to  hang out. Anyway, since wala ngang live band that night, gumala nalang kami sa place.

We bought a dog figurine with the letter of our first name, sweet eh? Lol.

(So… im now destracted dahil lumipat ako ng place, im now here on my friend’s room. Dito daw muna ako, hehe! And to motivate my mood, go naman ako!)

After buying that figurine, we walked again and decided to go somewhere else and ended up at a KTV. Syempre, ano pa nga ba ang gagawin dun, kundi kumanta. Gusto mo ng sample??? You can see my video at my facebook account.

Hahaha! Ang kapal ng muka ko right? Hehe… but that video was taken unconsciously! Hahahaha!!! Akala ko niloloko lang nya ko na he was taking me video, yun pala, totoo na! hahaha! Grrr… and he posted it in facebook, and my friends reacted on that. Haha! Ngayon lang daw nila ako nakita na kumakanta. Haha! Sa bahay lang kasi ako kumakanta, kasama parents ko or mga family friends.

Jake was drinking a case of beer, coors light! Haha! My brand, kaso wala ako sa mood uminom, and iniiwasan ko na talaga uminom. Haha, health reasons… He was a bit tipsy na din and patapos na din ang time namin  so after paying the bill, natulog na din kami somewhere. LOL.

Another escapade… fun fun fun… maiba naman ang trip, nagkantahan lang kami. Hehe! :p at talagang nakakadala yung bill. We won’t forget that night. Hahahaha!

more trip to come!

"A story that started with... precious moments!"

October 17, 2009; Saturday

I was out with my parents to have dinner. Kasama na din ang dormate ko, sasabay na din kasi sya sa parents ko pag-uwi sa Laguna...

That day, katxt ko na ang friend ko, si Jake. Niyaya ko sya na tumambay sa Starbucks, ako na naman kasi mag isa sa dorm, wala na kasi kinakapatid and at the same time ay roomate ko, umuwi na din kasi siya sa Laguna. Ayoko malungkot, so siya yung mabilis na niyaya ko at alam ko na posibleng makakasama ko that night; and as expected, he said yes. But when i txtd him again that night, niyaya daw pala siya ng isa pa namin friend. Iinom daw sila. So sabi ko nalang, itxt nalang niya ako kapag hindi sila matutuloy, dahil 7pm na, hindi pa din nagttxt yung friend namin kung tuloy pa ba sila.

Almost 8pm na, pabalik na ako sa dorm. I txtd Jake and asked him kung matutuloy pa ba kami, and he said na tuloy daw kami, hindi pa din daw kasi nagttxt yung friend namin kung tuloy pa sila. So sabi ko, meet kami ng 9.15pm, and sabi nya sa dating tagpuan daw, natawa ako, akala ko kung saan, sa dorm ko pala, hahaha!

That night ko lang ulit sya makikita and makakasama tumambay after ilang months na nanahimik sya, haha! :)) so here it goes...

First stop, at my Dorm (La Residencia II) : (nakuha ko pa maligo... buti nalang! haha! and you'll know why...) eto na, dumating na sya. haha! hmm... Habang naglalakad kami, sabi niya, umuwi na daw yung friend namin somewhere in QC. Nakakagulat, pero yun ang sabi niya ha, hehe... (no more comment ^_^ )

2nd stop, Harbour Square (Starbucks): Sa labas na kami umupo dahil nagyoyosi that time si Jake. So puro kwentuhan and tawanan, ang tagal namin di nagkita eh. Buti nalang wala masyadong ilangan, haha! So habang nagkukwentuhan kami, may grupo ng mga boys, no idea kung nakatambay din ba sila sa harbour sq., or napadaan lang. Nagkakagulo sila, and alam ko yung ganun klase ng scene dahil sanay ako sa mga ganun klase ng kaguluhan, lalo na involved ang pulis, haha! Nakita ko nakatingin na sakin yung isang guy, so tumayo agad ako and niyaya ko na si Jake na lumipat ng ibang place. Nakakatawa sya, nagulat sya sakin, naglaglagan pa mga gamit nya, hahaha! :p so habang naglalakad na kami away from starbucks, katxt nya ang kapatid nya na nasa MOA. So naisipan din namin na pumunta ng MOA... :)

3rd stop, MOA: Nakarating na kami ng MOA, halos lakarin namin yung seaside ng dulo sa dulo, madaming tambay at talagang gimikan, may bar kasi :) may nadaanan din kaming mga bata na naglalaro ng 2 puppies, ang cute talaga ng black puppies, akala namin stuff toys lang na may battery kaya nakakagalaw, haha! Hindi namin nakita kapatid ni Jake. At dahil puro bar ang nadadaanan namin  habang naglalakad lakad, naisipan nya na mag bar. Since hindi na ko umiinom, sabi ko mag comedy bar nalang kami.

4th stop, Punchline: Hindi kami nakapasok, puno na daw. Nakiihi nalang si Jake sa bar. haha! Poor us, si Vice ganda pa naman ang performer. grr.... Next time nalang :)

... sakay ulit kami ng taxi, and Jake suggested sa alam nyang bar sa Sampaloc, edi go naman kami! :)

5th stop, Panulukan Bar at Sampaloc Manila : Nakarating din kami after ng paikot ikot sa may Sampaloc. I was not sure kung anong oras na kami nakarating, maybe 1.30am. There was an acoustic singer, he was singing lovely old songs, nagkataon pa na parehas pa namin gusto ni Jake yung songs, so enjoy kami. Ang ganda ng place, cozy. Mukang dinadayo yun dahil puno na talaga, buti nalang nakapasok pa kami. We ordered pulutan and few bottles of beer for Jake. So habang inaantay ang order, we were enjoying the live jam. Nakakatuwa, ang gagaling ng mga audience, haha! Hindi pa nakokompleto ang order namin, mukang gusto na kami paalisin ng waiter, haha! past 2am na din kasi, and closing time nila is 2.30. So back to the people around us, we were both enjoying the scene of this couple in another table, hahaha!! Seductive si girly, bumubuyangyang sa harap ni boyet! LOL. Buti nalang umalis din sila agad, la ako sa mood to watch a live show. haha! :)) After few minutes, natapos din magpapak ng pulutan. :)

Nasa labas na kami ng bar. Parang bitin pa, hindi pa namin alam kung san pa pwede pumunta. Jake said, Timog daw, pero along the way, naisipan namin pumunta pa somewhere else. So.... GO ULIT! hahaha! :)

Habang nasa taxi, ang saya, puro kalokohan and kwentuhan. Nakisali na din si manong driver sa kwentuhan namin. Nagshare si manong ng mga experiences nya as a driver. hahaha! Tawanan lang talaga. Nag stop over kami sa isang gasoline station to pee. Manong asked me kung bakla daw ba si Jake, dahil na din sa topics namin, HAHAHAHA! Sana pala sinabi ko na OO, haha! :p So, ok na. Hindi talaga namin alam kung timog or kung san man kami papunta. Ako ata nagtanong kay manong kung san pwede pumunta, madaling araw na din kasi, and 3 or 4am na din, sa totoo lang pagod na ko non, hihi! (peace beb!) i dun wanna spoil the trip, go nalang din ako ng go! haha! hhmmm... May pinagmamayabang si manong na place, madami na din daw siya nadala na pasahero sa place na yun. hahaha! Ok, whatever manong... haha! So convinced naman kami, maganda daw talaga kasi eh, and madami din daw magagawa dun. So sige na nga. haha!

6th stop: Nakarating din after 30-45mins of travel, I won't mention the place, baka mabuking kung san man talaga yun, though my friends know where it is, haha! :)

Pagbaba ko palang ng taxi, kahit madilim, geez, i knew what it was! At pagpasok palang dun, alam na kung ano man yun! hahahahahaha!! ( I won't forget that place!) So, sa pagaod ko, higa agad ako, im sooooo dead tired! At si Jake, dinadaldal pa din ako! grrr... Tulugan ko nga sya, haha! Nagising kami ng around 7am,we went outside to check the place. Maganda sya, kung may resort lang dun, panalo na yung place na yun! Kulang sa maintainance, sayang. But the place itself is nice. :) Pwede din ang barkada dun. ^_^  sshhh... nakatulog ulit kami... zzzZZzzz....


Ten in the morning, nagising na ang mga trippers. Mga gutom! hahahaha! we ordered food... foooooood... hahahaha!!! Kailangan ubusin para sulit at umalis on time para tipid. haha! :)





7th stop: Naglalakad na... Hanap na naman ng masasakyan at lakad dito, tawid don, ang ineeet! Hindi pa kami pagod, ang aga pa! Mga 1pm palang naman, hihi! We planned to watch a movie! haha! oha... So habang naghihintay ng time namin to watch, gumala pa kami sa mall (Sta. Lucia Mall). I saw a frame in a store, "World's Greatest Engineer" ba kamo? haha! Pinahanap ko pa talaga yun, ang totpul ko diba?? Ubusan na ng lahi dat time, pero ok lang! go! haha! Ok, sige, lakad lakad pa. Mahaba pa ang oras eh. Dahil namagnet na naman ako ng mga stuff toys, pumasok ako sa Blue Magic. :) nagtingin tingin.. Hanggang tingin lang naman eh, mahirap na maubusan ng pamasahe, haha! So... Unexpectedly, Jake bought me a puppy! hahahaha!! :)) LOL. Our puppy's name is Timmy! Timmy the Flying Dog! hahaha! *sweet Jake*, hindi na nya pinaplastic si Timmy, talagang dala ko sya hanggang paguwi namin. tsk. Wawa si Timmy, pagod... :(

Final Destination: After crying and laughing while watching the blockbuster movie? Umuwi na kami! haha! Malapit na mag 24hours na wala pa kaming ligo at brushing our teeth! geez... But! Pagdating namin sa dorm ko, unbelievable! Nakapasok si Jake without me arguing with the guard, lol. Pag nga naman sinuswerte noh? Humiram kasi sya ng cd's, hehe. Nakakahiya din naman sa kanya na paghintayin ko sya sa labas ng dorm, pagod na sya. :) hmm... Hindi pa sya umuwi agad, we went to St. Jude Thaddeus Parish. Hahaha! He lighted candles, naks! :) After that, we went to Mcdo and ate... whew! After that, we went to.... Naaaahhhh... Hanggang dun nalang po! haha! Tao din kami, napapagod din. Honestly, wala na kaming pera, kaya uwian naaaa! Hahahahah! :)) Bow.... :)

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We went online pa nga pagkauwi namin. Pero syempre, naligo and natulog muna kami. Hahaha! Bawi bawi ng konti, hindi biro yung trip na yun. Hindi kami prepared. :) We really enjoyed that unplanned trip. Iba yung saya, biglaang saya! haha! Mapapauwi ka lang dahil wala ka ng pera! haha! My story was intentionally not detailed. I didn't mention names para iwas isssues, lalo na from my friends and our common friends. Though some of my friends knew what really happened, and they enjoyed my story. :)

This kind of memories should be treasured forever, lalo na with your friend/s. It's not easy to find someone you're comfortable to hang out with. Walang arte, walang keme, walang reklamo.  Lahat ginawa dahil gusto at nasiyahan kayo, kumbaga, "Simpleng tambay na nauwi sa masayang paglalakbay.", sino ang makakalimot sa ganoong pangyayari??

Isang pambihirang pagkakataon. Salamat na din at "Medyo" matino ang kasama kong si Jake. haha! ( you're the man Jake! mwaaahhh!! ) No boring time with him. Everything is worth remembering, naks!


We'll keep this happy memories we had...



Next trip, October 24, 2009, Saturday.....

♥ wishlist.....

I FOUND A FRIEND IN YOU… BEBI…

For past 3 years, i have this txtfriend hus always der for me and supports me.

Though not that close and havnt met him in person, somehow, he made me feel that there’s always this someone hus willing to help and calm you down everytime ur sad and got problems, and thats my BEBI brother, king…

last february, for one month, surprisingly for him, i stayed at his school’s dormitory (exclusive for boys) because thats the nearest and safest place to stay while i was having my internship in a company…

we were both excited that finally we’ll meet, together with our other common friends.. we enjoyed my first night. the crowd, the music, bonding, funny moments and especially the siomai they bought for me when they visited me at my room.. i wont forget dat siomai, kainis! hahahah!!!

a brother:

while on that dormitory, i felt like a princess…

everynight, he checks on me or waits for me when i arrived from work. he makes sure that i had my dinner before i sleep.. or as much as possible, we have dinner together while chatting and share stories about our other friends before ho goes home from school….

everymorning, before leaving for work, hes banging at my door while i was taking a bath and patiently waits for me till i opened him up.. oh, he always bring hot instant cupped noodles for me, he arranges my things, folded my clothes that i wear in work and made sure that i had my breakfast (noodles and coffee).

and kapag may gimik kami, lagi akong hatid sundo…. and take note, laging umuulan kapag mag kasama kaming lumalabas…

and he was doing those to me for almost one month…

very sweet huh?!

a bestfriend, spiritual advicer and a family member:

he gives advices spiritually, everytime im down and something or someone’s bugging my mind.. he often calls me, papagalitan ako and ang daming bilin. which i like most… if i need him ryt away, he’s always free, at least thru cellphone if he cant make it going at my pad…. damn miss that back in laguna… and my parents like him so much….

last hugs and kisses:

on my last night, last stay at canlubang, we had our last dinner together. unfortunately, our other friend didnt make it, so sad. but then, we enjoyed. we took pictures when we arrived in dorm, and isang mahabang sermon at san damakmak na bilin from him… he even gave me his own rosary, nakakatouch. :) i hugged him tightly and kissed him (cheeks, grr!). and the next day, he helped us packing my things. my parents were honored to meet him because he took good care of me… my dad talked to him while i was with my mom… i miss that moment, i wish he is my real brother.. before leaving him, i gave him my last hug… and i almost cried.. :(

i’m thankful, God gave him to me….

and needless to say, i love my bebi brother…

*right now, im crying.. :’(

pakiramdam ko, hndi ko na sya makikita ulit.

he called me up awyl ago, sa mga sinasabi nya and mga bilin and paalala, i felt like he is leaving me for good, kahit he promised me na babawi sya pagbalik niya… :( cant wait to see him again, and hug him….

the reason hes leaving?

i cant tell yet…

secret is a secret…

im gonna miss him…

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LIFE IS SO UNFAIR…BABE…

“life is so unfair”… - pretty girl…

me and my friend coleen went to greenhills last week. honestly, para lang mag starbucks and spend time together, alam mo na, kasama na dun ang kwentuhan and chismisan. after getting our orders, nagkataon na wala ng vacant seats sa loob. so pabor sakin coz i smoke, sa labas kami, no choice. starting our topic, there was this pretty mestiza girl who seated next to our table. harapan kami nung girl. while we were chatting, this girl (i wont mention her name), started smiling at us, syempre we’re not that suplada type, so we smiled back at her. then suddenly, she started talking to us, asking questions like how old we are, where we from, specifically location and school. sabi ni girl, she’s enjoying watching us, tawa daw kami ng tawa. syempre kinausap din namin sya hanggang pinalipat niya kami sa table niya. nagkwentuhan kami for three hours. and muntik ko na maubos ang isang kahang yosi. grrr!!!

she opened up her personal problem to us. this girl is definitely pretty, single, educated, socialite, rich and belongs to a well known family. perfect i may say. when she was starting to tell her story, i knew it was about a relationship. and i can say that life is really unfair after hearing her problem. she’s totally inlove with this married guy. yes, married. but! before she enters this kind of situation, she knew that it’s wrong, immoral. oh well, what can we say? L-O-V-E yun eh. even me, if i find this married man so damn perfect, tell me, won’t you fall in love too? haaaayyy….

ang kaso, she’s too pretty to have this kind of problem. hindi ko maintindihan bakit yung guy na yun ang napagtuunan niya ng pansin. ang sa akin lang, umiwas ka sa problema diba? there are so many men out there who are still single and ready to mingle. haha!

grabe, wala akong nasabing maganda for her, and i was so sorry. i mean, hndi ako makapag bigay ng payo or i dunno how i will comfort her that time. all we can do is accompany her. kahit madami kaming napagkwentuhan that night, i can see in her eyes na talagang love niya yung guy. we are having the same problems actually. kaya madalas ko din sabihin na life is so unfair.

wala akong nakikitang masama/mali sa kanya, kahit first meeting palang namin that night. she’s cool.. really cool… kaya hindi ko rin maisip kung bakit siya pinahihirapan ng ganon.

akala ko that night, iuuwi pa niya kami para lang masamahan siya. buti nalang her friends were waiting for her.

the next morning, she txted us. she was thankful na nakilala niya kami, and likewise. syempre nagkaroon kami ng new friend and new ate diba…

nagtxt ulit siya nung gabi, and she said na malungkot pa din daw siya. oh well… a heart warming message nalang ang nareply ko to her, kahit i don’t even know what to say, baka kasi maoffend siya.

after that night, she stoped txting us…

we are still waiting for a good news from her. hopefully, madinig namin na she moved on and happy na siya ulit.

life is really unfair. coz if not, we won’t learn how to handle problems like this. and we won’t be strong coz of this problems.

God balances everything for us, and being unfair is His one way.

afterall, para din satin ang trials niya.

we’ll realize that if suddenly, we feel complete, happy and contented…

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THIS IS WHAT I FEEL, THIS IS HOW I FEEL AND THIS IS WHY I THINK THINGS LIKE THIS…

Sa totoo lang, hindi rin naman talaga ginusto ng mga taong mahal natin ang saktan tayo o kaya naman ay ang mga bagay na bigla nalang mawawala. Hindi naman nila sinasadyang iwan tayo. Minsan kailangan din natin tanggapin na sa paniniwala nila, ito ang makakabuti at ikasasaya nila.

Mahirap ang maiwanan, masakit diba? mahirap din ang mangiwan, dahil masakit at nakakakonsensya… Pero mas dun ka sasaya kung yun ang desisyon at maluwag iyon sa loob mo.

Hindi mo magagawang makasakit at mangiwan ng iba kung alam mo, sa sarili mo, walang ibang bagay o tao ang mas makakapagpaligaya sayo o kung ramdam mo na mas kuntento at kumpleto ang buhay mo kasama sya o ang bagay na yun…

minsan, kailangan mo talaga isakripisyo ang isang bagay o tao para sa ikabubuti mo at ikaliligaya mo… Ika nga nila “you can’t serve two masters at a time.” o “you can’t have it all.” Isa isa lang… Hindi mo makukuha ang lahat ng gusto mo…

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naransan mo na bang maiwanan at mangiwan pero masaya ka? hindi diba? dahil mahal mo man o hindi, nasa loob mo pa din ang kaba, sakit at konsensyang makakasakit ka.

tama ba na iwan at mangiwan kapalit ng kaligayahan? sabihin na natin na naging sakim ka kung pinili mo mangiwan. pero, mahirap naman siguro ang magdusa at mahirapan sa isang sitwasyong pilit mong iniintindi, inaayos pero ayaw nitong tanggapin ang tama at ang mga di dapat gawin at mga bagay na di para sa kanya.

ikaw? san ka mas liligaya? ang mangiwan o ang maiwanan?

san mas hindi ka makakasakit, o masasaktan? sa mangiwan o iwanan nalang?

sa mundong ito, wala ng madali at mabilis… lahat tayo kailangan natin mag desisyon, mag isip at gumalaw ng tama.

…at hindi din tayo tatama at malalaman ang tama kung hndi tayo matututo sa ating sariling kamalian…

kung maiwanan o mangiwan tayo…

Ganun lang naman talaga, dun sila kung saan sila masaya. Ganun din naman siguro ang gagawin natin kung tayo ang nasa sitwasyon diba? Lahat tayo mararanasang iwanan at mangiwan. Panapanahon lang yan…

wag lang tayo magsisisi, dahil ginusto natin na mapunta sa atin ang taong iyon o bagay man yon.

dahil sa isang banda, naranasan mo din maging masaya… ^_^

Who am I?

There are a lot of factors, things that leads my life into a colorful bliss. I was raised in a healthy filled of love home.

My life, I would consider, is a lot more of my favorite game, like a car race to be exact. Every decision I make takes a lot of serious thinking. Every choice I create always brings me into a big challenge to face.

I look like a normal, ordinary individual on the outside. But then, don’t we all? The problem is, sometimes I don’t feel I am. Haha!

Anyway, who will think that at the first glance I’m an only child of well- known Mr. and Mrs. Cenon San Pedro who are both successful doctor in my hometown.

I grew up in a funny, educational and loving home, with an affectionate perfect father and mother. I am an only child. Yes, only child that everybody keeps on asking me, “hindi ba malungkot?” or they will tell me, “ang swerte mo naman, nasa iyo na lahat, and nasusunod ka lagi.”, which they are all wrong.

Honestly, there were times that I feel so alone and neglected, but my parents made me realize things and gave me wisdom to think what is right from wrong. Yes, I am lucky to have everything I need, but

I never had all the things that I want. I enjoyed my childhood, definitely. With my cousins (I miss my lolo, who used to call me ELA, he doesn’t like calling me Pamela or Pam), classmates and playmates, they know me as a thin quiet girl, who’s always saling ketket in games. I also had a childhood sweetheart back in pre-elementary up to mid grade school and still my classmate in high school, who is also a good friend of mine now. Oh, don’t ask about my high school life. I had so many memories to share and kilig moments of course, which my parents especially my mom, knows everything about that.

I am one happy sailing soul! How can I say that? Well, I am not like other people who are happy and contented on what they have and on what they have attained but they keep their feelings to themselves.

I feel loved. Most people I care about love me back. I am most thankful for that. Even though I am not that good girl everybody expects, they still give me a lot of affection, which sometimes double the limit, most especially those who admires mo now and courting me before. I have lot of friends here in Laguna and back then in C.E.U. Manila, which is my second home. My friends are everything I ask for. Even though we don’t see each other that often, we know deep in ourselves that there’s still this special string that binds together. But from time to time, we still have bonding moments yearly.

My life has been blessed. (Thank you Lord!) I am studying to one of the country’s well- known university. I have pairs of slippers and shoes, my collection of magazines and wrappers of flowers that my boyfriend sent me all the way from Europe, two different unit of mobile phones and an expensive headset my dad gave me, a laptop for online communication and a latest PSP 3004, and I also drive a 9 year old automatic first model of CR-V… (Are these enough???) Anyway, some of these things make me happy, so when one of these would be lost, I don’t think my life would be quite the same.

My mushy cheesy life. I’m strong enough to hold back my emotions. I have burdens too, which I would rather not have. They affect my heart and exhaust my mind. They bother me but its distraction is what keeps my life more challenging and full of spice. As long as I can feel love and happiness through my loved ones, I am certain that I will be alive.

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