I FOUND A FRIEND IN YOU… BEBI…

For past 3 years, i have this txtfriend hus always der for me and supports me.

Though not that close and havnt met him in person, somehow, he made me feel that there’s always this someone hus willing to help and calm you down everytime ur sad and got problems, and thats my BEBI brother, king…

last february, for one month, surprisingly for him, i stayed at his school’s dormitory (exclusive for boys) because thats the nearest and safest place to stay while i was having my internship in a company…

we were both excited that finally we’ll meet, together with our other common friends.. we enjoyed my first night. the crowd, the music, bonding, funny moments and especially the siomai they bought for me when they visited me at my room.. i wont forget dat siomai, kainis! hahahah!!!

a brother:

while on that dormitory, i felt like a princess…

everynight, he checks on me or waits for me when i arrived from work. he makes sure that i had my dinner before i sleep.. or as much as possible, we have dinner together while chatting and share stories about our other friends before ho goes home from school….

everymorning, before leaving for work, hes banging at my door while i was taking a bath and patiently waits for me till i opened him up.. oh, he always bring hot instant cupped noodles for me, he arranges my things, folded my clothes that i wear in work and made sure that i had my breakfast (noodles and coffee).

and kapag may gimik kami, lagi akong hatid sundo…. and take note, laging umuulan kapag mag kasama kaming lumalabas…

and he was doing those to me for almost one month…

very sweet huh?!

a bestfriend, spiritual advicer and a family member:

he gives advices spiritually, everytime im down and something or someone’s bugging my mind.. he often calls me, papagalitan ako and ang daming bilin. which i like most… if i need him ryt away, he’s always free, at least thru cellphone if he cant make it going at my pad…. damn miss that back in laguna… and my parents like him so much….

last hugs and kisses:

on my last night, last stay at canlubang, we had our last dinner together. unfortunately, our other friend didnt make it, so sad. but then, we enjoyed. we took pictures when we arrived in dorm, and isang mahabang sermon at san damakmak na bilin from him… he even gave me his own rosary, nakakatouch. :) i hugged him tightly and kissed him (cheeks, grr!). and the next day, he helped us packing my things. my parents were honored to meet him because he took good care of me… my dad talked to him while i was with my mom… i miss that moment, i wish he is my real brother.. before leaving him, i gave him my last hug… and i almost cried.. :(

i’m thankful, God gave him to me….

and needless to say, i love my bebi brother…

*right now, im crying.. :’(

pakiramdam ko, hndi ko na sya makikita ulit.

he called me up awyl ago, sa mga sinasabi nya and mga bilin and paalala, i felt like he is leaving me for good, kahit he promised me na babawi sya pagbalik niya… :( cant wait to see him again, and hug him….

the reason hes leaving?

i cant tell yet…

secret is a secret…

im gonna miss him…

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LIFE IS SO UNFAIR…BABE…

“life is so unfair”… - pretty girl…

me and my friend coleen went to greenhills last week. honestly, para lang mag starbucks and spend time together, alam mo na, kasama na dun ang kwentuhan and chismisan. after getting our orders, nagkataon na wala ng vacant seats sa loob. so pabor sakin coz i smoke, sa labas kami, no choice. starting our topic, there was this pretty mestiza girl who seated next to our table. harapan kami nung girl. while we were chatting, this girl (i wont mention her name), started smiling at us, syempre we’re not that suplada type, so we smiled back at her. then suddenly, she started talking to us, asking questions like how old we are, where we from, specifically location and school. sabi ni girl, she’s enjoying watching us, tawa daw kami ng tawa. syempre kinausap din namin sya hanggang pinalipat niya kami sa table niya. nagkwentuhan kami for three hours. and muntik ko na maubos ang isang kahang yosi. grrr!!!

she opened up her personal problem to us. this girl is definitely pretty, single, educated, socialite, rich and belongs to a well known family. perfect i may say. when she was starting to tell her story, i knew it was about a relationship. and i can say that life is really unfair after hearing her problem. she’s totally inlove with this married guy. yes, married. but! before she enters this kind of situation, she knew that it’s wrong, immoral. oh well, what can we say? L-O-V-E yun eh. even me, if i find this married man so damn perfect, tell me, won’t you fall in love too? haaaayyy….

ang kaso, she’s too pretty to have this kind of problem. hindi ko maintindihan bakit yung guy na yun ang napagtuunan niya ng pansin. ang sa akin lang, umiwas ka sa problema diba? there are so many men out there who are still single and ready to mingle. haha!

grabe, wala akong nasabing maganda for her, and i was so sorry. i mean, hndi ako makapag bigay ng payo or i dunno how i will comfort her that time. all we can do is accompany her. kahit madami kaming napagkwentuhan that night, i can see in her eyes na talagang love niya yung guy. we are having the same problems actually. kaya madalas ko din sabihin na life is so unfair.

wala akong nakikitang masama/mali sa kanya, kahit first meeting palang namin that night. she’s cool.. really cool… kaya hindi ko rin maisip kung bakit siya pinahihirapan ng ganon.

akala ko that night, iuuwi pa niya kami para lang masamahan siya. buti nalang her friends were waiting for her.

the next morning, she txted us. she was thankful na nakilala niya kami, and likewise. syempre nagkaroon kami ng new friend and new ate diba…

nagtxt ulit siya nung gabi, and she said na malungkot pa din daw siya. oh well… a heart warming message nalang ang nareply ko to her, kahit i don’t even know what to say, baka kasi maoffend siya.

after that night, she stoped txting us…

we are still waiting for a good news from her. hopefully, madinig namin na she moved on and happy na siya ulit.

life is really unfair. coz if not, we won’t learn how to handle problems like this. and we won’t be strong coz of this problems.

God balances everything for us, and being unfair is His one way.

afterall, para din satin ang trials niya.

we’ll realize that if suddenly, we feel complete, happy and contented…

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THIS IS WHAT I FEEL, THIS IS HOW I FEEL AND THIS IS WHY I THINK THINGS LIKE THIS…

Sa totoo lang, hindi rin naman talaga ginusto ng mga taong mahal natin ang saktan tayo o kaya naman ay ang mga bagay na bigla nalang mawawala. Hindi naman nila sinasadyang iwan tayo. Minsan kailangan din natin tanggapin na sa paniniwala nila, ito ang makakabuti at ikasasaya nila.

Mahirap ang maiwanan, masakit diba? mahirap din ang mangiwan, dahil masakit at nakakakonsensya… Pero mas dun ka sasaya kung yun ang desisyon at maluwag iyon sa loob mo.

Hindi mo magagawang makasakit at mangiwan ng iba kung alam mo, sa sarili mo, walang ibang bagay o tao ang mas makakapagpaligaya sayo o kung ramdam mo na mas kuntento at kumpleto ang buhay mo kasama sya o ang bagay na yun…

minsan, kailangan mo talaga isakripisyo ang isang bagay o tao para sa ikabubuti mo at ikaliligaya mo… Ika nga nila “you can’t serve two masters at a time.” o “you can’t have it all.” Isa isa lang… Hindi mo makukuha ang lahat ng gusto mo…

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naransan mo na bang maiwanan at mangiwan pero masaya ka? hindi diba? dahil mahal mo man o hindi, nasa loob mo pa din ang kaba, sakit at konsensyang makakasakit ka.

tama ba na iwan at mangiwan kapalit ng kaligayahan? sabihin na natin na naging sakim ka kung pinili mo mangiwan. pero, mahirap naman siguro ang magdusa at mahirapan sa isang sitwasyong pilit mong iniintindi, inaayos pero ayaw nitong tanggapin ang tama at ang mga di dapat gawin at mga bagay na di para sa kanya.

ikaw? san ka mas liligaya? ang mangiwan o ang maiwanan?

san mas hindi ka makakasakit, o masasaktan? sa mangiwan o iwanan nalang?

sa mundong ito, wala ng madali at mabilis… lahat tayo kailangan natin mag desisyon, mag isip at gumalaw ng tama.

…at hindi din tayo tatama at malalaman ang tama kung hndi tayo matututo sa ating sariling kamalian…

kung maiwanan o mangiwan tayo…

Ganun lang naman talaga, dun sila kung saan sila masaya. Ganun din naman siguro ang gagawin natin kung tayo ang nasa sitwasyon diba? Lahat tayo mararanasang iwanan at mangiwan. Panapanahon lang yan…

wag lang tayo magsisisi, dahil ginusto natin na mapunta sa atin ang taong iyon o bagay man yon.

dahil sa isang banda, naranasan mo din maging masaya… ^_^